Day 7 One of Your Other Family Members

Dear Other Family Member,
     You don't know this, but you are the most important person in my life. There have been points in my life when I felt there was no way out of my misery besides death. The idea of taking my life tempted me, I almost did it once. You're the reason I didn't take my life. You're very important to me and I know I don't say it.
    I'm very proud of you. At your age I hadn't done half the things you did. I know you're going to go far in life, and I know it will make me very happy. I do care about your happiness. I want you to be proud of me. There have been so many times when I just want to give up, but I don't because of you. I tolerate all the injustices of our parents because of you. I didn't run away because I didn't want you out of my life.
     I see you growing up, getting ready to go to college and it saddens me. As you grow up, you also grow distant from me. I can see how you don't look up to me the way you used to. You even think I'm a dumbass and don't take my ideas seriously. I hope that you are able to understand me one day. I don't want to become the crazy aunt to your kids one day.
     Either way, I hope that our relationship never dwindles, even when you leave to college. It's more than a year a away and my eyes already tear up at the idea.
     I think my love for you is more than this society accepts, so I will keep it to myself and root for you on the sidelines.