Day 23 Your Pet

Dear Pet,
     Well, you don't exist and it's for a very good reason. I've had pets before and they didn't make it out alive. I am generally afraid of animals yet find them to be very fascinating. My first rabbit ran away. My second rabbit was beheaded by the neighbor's cat. My mother gave away my third rabbit, without my consent and right in front of me. My third rabbit disappeared when I left to college. I still don't know what happened. I then got myself two turtles that both died under my care the first one died because the shell got too soft. I gave all the calcium I could but to no avail. The second turtle lasted me another year, but its death is the reason for your non existence.
     I needed a basking light. I didn't have money for a basking light. I used my desk lamp instead. The turtle stayed there too long and it roasted. I remember walking into my room and it was half toasted, I till had time to save it. It only moved its eyes and I think that was the first time I made eye contact with a turtle. Now that I think about it, the look that turtle gave me was a plea. I could have turned off the light and saved the cold blooded baby. But I kept going and thought nothing of it. I'll never forget the look of that turtle.
     My brother buried both my turtles. I didn't have the guts to bury it myself. I cried so much. I didn't know how much I cared until it was finally gone. Actually, it was that way for all my animals. I care too much but I don't know how to care for animals well. I'm scared of animals which makes me a terrible caretaker. I will not be responsible for any more deaths, and that includes your own. I care too much about you to ever do something like that to you.