Dear Last Person I Hugged/Kissed,
If there is anything this challenge is teaching me is that I lead a lonely life. Most of the people I've written to are people who are no longer in my life or are non existent. It seems I live a life a regret. I regret not seeing having said this, I regret not finding out why that happened, I regret, I regret, I regret! Has one of these letters been happy?
This one is absolutely no exception. I can't remember the last person I hugged or kissed. I don't have anyone to hug or kiss. Shit! I'm lonely. I know, it's all my fault. I lead people out of my life. I push them away and then I regret. It's a pattern these letters have helped me see. How do I stop pushing people away? Better yet, why am I stuck in this cycle? Am I scared of something? What am I really fearing?
I think I have just gone through so many disappointments I don't find anyone worthy now. What's the point of trying if no one else is? Why take a risk if I know what the outcome will be? Maybe I'm wrong. Maybe my way of thinking still hasn't changed, and I am still the same as always.
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